Yes. I am split. In these days, everybody seems to have a very clear, distinctive opinion about the Israel/Palestine issue. I am often asked the same: Do i recognize Israels right to exist? Do i oppose Hamas? Do i support the “moderate” Fatah? Do i agree on a two-state solution on the 67-borders? If yes, why? If no, why not?
Here is a summary of a dialogue that have taken place inside my head for years now.
Well i’m split between two:
A) Our pride and patriotism
B) My wish for peace and a better future for both arabs and jews.
My pride do not allow me to support what it regards as Arab land being splitted up in two halfs. What is rightfully ours is ours, my pride says, and it should not be divided. This is a duty for all Arabs.
But my wish for a better peace and a better future disagrees. “We have fought Israel for decades”, it says. “And look what it brought us: Losses of egyptian soldiers en masse and yet the future for palestinians looks darker than ever”.
Because it is about the Palestinians, really, not about us! It hurts my pride everytime I in reference to the Holy Land say “Israel” and not “Palestine”. I do not mean to hurt anyone but i am just being honest. But it is not about my pride and the pride of the arabs, is it? It is about what is best for the Palestinians (of course i do not want a solution that humiliates them, placing them all as second-rank citizens in Israel even though certain issues COULD improve this way, like health issues. Such a solution will never be acceptable).
So what do i believe should happen? Again, i am split. When i try to reconcile our pride and my wish for a better future, then i come forward to a one-state-solution: The holy land that is both “ours” and “theirs”, producing equality between Christians, Muslims and Jews. Something similar to the “Isratin”-idea of Moammar al-Gaddafi (no i do not support all aspects of his idea and no i do not support HIM). A country that is OURS – us being arabs and muslims – and on the same times, THEIRS – they being jews, christians and druze. That is what i believe is the right thing and the most beautiful thing indeed.
But suddently, my logic start working and interrupts this dream of mine (don’t you guys just hate when that happens?). It will never work this way. We are dealing with two people that share a very troublesome past, that have seen each others as enemies for decades – and most important, view themselves as two different national entities. I believe that the vast majority of the Israeli citizens with arab ethnicity feel more Palestinian that Israeli, if given the choice. I have spoken to some, and none of them held the opposite view. Besides, how many Israelis feel “Palestinian”? We are not talking about “jews and arabs”, but “Israelis” and “Palestinians”: Not only two different ethnicities, but two different NATIONALITIES. That will never work, Ahmad. Besides, should it happen, somebody is going to ruin it for sure! If not arab radicals (yes – they have a tradition for ruining stuff), then israeli extremists (yes – they do exist, guys) and if neither, then i’m sure some muslim countries would do what they can to mess things up. Keep in mind the support Iran draws from muslims because they “stand up against Israel” – thats basically what keeps them and Syria alive – if things should end up like this, i’m sure Iran or others would find a way to ruin it. No doubt.
What to do then? A two-state solution? The sentiments among Israelis and Palestinians kinda demands that. But what about the jewish settlers in West Bank and Arabs in Israel? The jews of Al-Khalil will remain “ISRAELI” even though they are palestinian by nationality, and the Israeli-Arab’s will remain “PALESTINIAN” even though they are Israeli by nationality. And should the millions of refugees in Lebanon, Jordan, Khaleeg and Europe suddently return to Palestine, which in many cases is far away from where they belong (like a family from Akka returning to Nablus)? And most important: Would the newly independent Palestine be able to handle all those?
And what about Jerusalem? Ours or theirs? Or the West for them and the East for us?
It’s too complicated for my head to handle.
So instead, i will draw the sharpest of all swords: The prayer. And pray for a better future for both israelis and palestinians. I don’t know what to do about a palestinian boy growing up an orphan in poverty, his parents being killed in an IDF-action (yep – that happens!), and i do not know what to do about an israeli girl who is afraid to get killed by a bomb every time she is on her way to school. I cannot imagine what that would be like. All i know is that i want it to STOP as soon as possible and i pray that it will stop soon..
O Allah, to you all my prayers belong
All praise is for you, who guides and judges mankind
Who created us, our hearts and minds,
the earth we stand on,
the air we breathe.
All praise is for you, who’ve send unto us the mercy to the worlds,
our Master and our Beloved,
Muhammad Al-Mustafa, peace and blessing upon him.
O Allah, have mercy upon us
And save the people of the Holy Land, jews,
Muslims and christians
From their state of fear and free them from the threats they face.
O Allah, guide us all to the truth and grant to their people
peace, smile and laughter.
O Allah, grant the believers the intercession of your beloved,
our master from his birth to the day of judgement